I find it hard to accept the fact that out of all of the guys I meet, almost 95% of them I make friends with and nothing more than that. I guess it’s fine being one of the boys and being the friend that they come up to with their problems but at some point there’d be a time that I’d just wish I was a guy. It seems easier that way; maybe then some feelings wouldn’t be attached with anything that happens.

Nick just wrote me a song and it was a story about how two people are made for each other but never met yet. He sent it to me before anyone else saying how he’d want me to listen to it first. It was the normal routine that he had, but this time this song was sort of directed to me… in a way I could feel that through his lyrics. But then again, we’re just friends. He has a girlfriend which proves that there’s nothing more to this.

Most things that happen to me between guys, leaves me just being a friend to them. Most feelings attached to anything would just be a pile of nothing that’s just there to confuse me.